POEMS FOR ROBYN

ONLY THE BEST ~~
A Heart of Gold stopped beating,
Two shining eyes at rest.
God broke our hearts to prove
He only takes The Best.
God knows you had to leave us,
But you did not go alone ~
For part of us went with you,
The day He took you Home.
To some you are forgotten,
To others just the past.
But to us who loved and lost you,
Your memory will always last.

In Memory Of....
You never said I'm leaving
You never said goodbye
You were gone before I knew it,
And only God knew why
A million times I needed you,
A million times I cried
If love alone could have saved you,
You never would have died
In life I loved you dearly
In death I love you still
In my heart you hold a place,
That no one could ever fill
It broke my heart to lose you,
But you didn't go alone
For part of me went with you,
The day God took you home.

* Best Angel Friends *
A beautiful little angel showed up to Heaven's gates
Confused and unknowing the plan that for him awaits.
Then another little angel walked up and took his hand
and said, "Please don't be sad you left, you're in the Promised Land."
"I'm glad to be here but I do not think I was to go,
Perhaps there was a mistake, for my mommy wanted me so."
The little greeting angel gave a sweet smile and said,
"My mommy wanted me too, but to Heaven I was led.
You see, we do not get to choose when on Earth it's time to go.
He gave us life, love and joy and a mother's womb to grow.
The Lord still needs new angels to guide them down on earth.
To watch over, comfort them, and help them see their worth."
"Is there still a way that I can sleep in my mommy's bed?"
The greeting angel grinned and said, "that luxury you'll keep.
I visit my mommy nightly and softly sing her to sleep."
The little angel replied, "then I think I'll like it here.
I'll visit my mommy nightly and weaken her pain and fears.
I love her and will keep her safe at night and in between,
And let her know with a sweet memory that she is still with me."
The greeting angel gave her new friend a big hug and said,
"Until our mommy's meet us here, let's be best angel friends."
"Okay," said the new angel, "that sounds good to me."
Then the angels sat and played keeping their mommy's in sight,
Humming the tunes to the song they would sing to their mommy's tonight...

Your Little Angel

Forever will I love you
You will always be my mom
As I sit with angels I look down at you and point proudly
See . . .See her . . .over there, That's her!

Did you know I could hear your thoughts at night
When you used to lie in bed staring, rubbing your hand on your belly
Looking up at the ceiling in the dark wondering things . . .
Who I would look more like . . .
About how my laugh would sound . . .
My First steps . . .
Books that you would read to me . . ones with pictures . . .
"I like Those!"

The park . . .how you would walk me in a stroller to play on the swings
How about after I ate ice cream the dog excitedly licking my
face almost knocking me down . . .
You just smiled when you read that . . I could see you

Do you know I call you "mommy"?
When you are in the kitchen I pretend I am there also and you can see me
I sit at the table and draw with crayons
I made a picture for the refrigerator
Yellow, blue, red and green
Look its of you and me with a sky and trees
I gave you curly hair . . .

Easter . . .that's my favorite
I always think of you holding my hand taking me to church
One of my socks keeps falling down

Mommy . . .I like the way you kiss my sisters goodnight
on the forehead and tuck them in
I play with them in their dreams
They don't know me but if you ask if they ever
dreamed of playing with a little girl
they would say yes . . .
That's me . . .

Do you remember that bird each early spring
that used to always return and sing
It would have been right around the time of my birthday
That was me to . . .
I would sing "I love you"

I am always along side you . . .
Sometimes you can feel me
A brush against your dress, a breeze on your face . . .
that's when I kiss you

You have always kept me in your mind and heart
Thank you . . .
One day we will be together in heaven and you will cry
and lift me in your arms and I will hug
you so very tight and never let go . . .

But for now I have to . . .

No matter where you go, what you do, I am with you
Always know that I am "Your Little Angel"
I love you mommy . . .

Bye . . .

My Child

Little feet
Little fingers
Litter ears and nose

So precious, so innocent
not yet knowing what life holds

Much to learn, much to see
much to hear, much to feel

Uncorrupted, undefiled
no hate, no malice
no prejudice, no deception

Loving, wanting
adoring demanding

Two weeks from today
would have been the day
Two weeks from today
a joyous birthday

I miss you my child
my beloved first born.

Another day, another time
we shall be
^{"Dear Daddy"
Dear Daddy,
I know today is Father's Day
And you miss me really bad,
But if you could
see what I see,
You wouldn't be so dad.

I have all kinds of playmates
And playgrounds everywhere!
With swings
and slides and
Balloon rides that whiz right
Through the air!

We have ice cream, cake and candy,
Milk, cookies
and punch;
We never have to go to bed,
And we choose what we want for lunch.

There's even a river where you and
I could fish,
The water's as clear as a day in spring,
And beautiful rainbows and fluffy white clouds
From which
I can see everything!

So you see, daddy,
Even though I'm not with you,
I'm under my Father's care,
And when
it's time for you to come,
You'll find me waiting right here!

And I'll give you the biggest hug -
Gee, I can
hardly wait.
And when no one's looking,
We'll even swing on Heaven's Gate!

I love you daddy.
Love,
Robyn

Mommy's Poem to Robyn
Robyn Nikole, my little angel...
I remember when I held you in my arms for the first time.
I
said "hello" and only moments later, I said "goodbye."
Your stay here was so brief,
But it has changed my life forever.
Your
beauty, your innocence, and your perfection
Have touched me in a way that I wasn't prepared for.

I knew that I would
fall completely in love with you the moment I saw you;
But I could have never imagined how deep or intense that love would
be.
I knew that loosing you would be painful,
But I could have never predicted this terrible, unending ache.
I knew
that I would be sad,
But how could I have known that this empty sadness would never leave me?
And although, I knew that
I would be happy when you were born,
I never dreamed that your brief life could bring such joy and happiness to mine.

All
of these emotions and more I experienced with such intensity
When you came into my life.
And although the happiness
came with sadness,
And the love came with pain,
I will never regret having you,
I will always be grateful for my
moment with you,
And I will forever cherish every memory of you!
You are my little angel
And I will hold you in my
heart forever...

Tiny Footprints on a Mother's Heart

When a baby arrives,
be it for a day, a month, a year or more,
or perhaps only a sweet flickering
moment-
the fragile spark of a tender soul
the secret swell of a new pregnancy
the goldfish flutter known to only
you-
you are unmistakeningly changed...
the tiny footprints left behind on your heart
bespeak your name as Mother.

Our Baby
An empty space where life once stirred
My eyes were not yet seeing
Where once my heartbeat shared a tone
with
a small and fragile being
So scarcely formed yet still a life
A dream, a hope, a promise
Our plans were changed to
now include
This new life thrust upon us
Then just as quickly as it came
Our dreams were gone away
The deepest
pain I've ever felt
Our baby died today
With footprints left upon our hearts
She gently took her leave
We're left
with nothing but regret
And only time to grieve
There was no service to be held
No mourning time required
No songs
of longing and despair
No words to be inspired
We're simply told to bare the pain
"It's nature's way" they say
I
can't forget our baby moved
inside me yesterday
And with each word of sorrow
my teardrops fall like rain
The anger
and resentment
are mixed with guilt and pain
I look to heaven for a sign
to help search out a course
Where love
can teach acceptance
and eliminate remorse
My body will accept the truth that now our baby's gone But in our hearts
our Angel everlastingly lives on!}